Silences

There comes a time in everybody’s life
when the forest of sadness becomes extremely dense
When there are words choked up in your throat
But it’s the silences your soul befriends

I never knew such silences existed in me
When were they born and spread inside me
I never knew that one day I would be incapable of a smile
Incapable of showing feelings I have harbored all this while

Everyone wants me to smile and be a part of the celebration
Little do they know that my calm surface is a mask, a deception.
A mask to hide the screams of silences inside
So the words come out like sunlight filtered through forest and only when I decide

Don’t poke me, probe me because you don’t know what you will get
Right now I am that part of me which I would want to forget
The other me which everybody loved is hidden and refuses to come out
It is battered, bruised and full of self doubt