Dear God,
I don’t need to tell you anything because everything that happens, happens because you will it to happen. But I want to ask of you something that is very important. And I know you will give it to me.
When I was clueless about my life and was in serious doubt about where I will land up you opened doors for me and I never looked back. Today when i think about it I realise that everything that I really really wanted was granted to me by you.
During MBA all my friends kept getting placed one by one and i thought I will never get a job not because there were no jobs but because I never thought i was capable of any of them. Serious self doubts clouded my perception but deep inside I never wanted any of those jobs. I could have died by now if I was working in some bank. But back then it was in my subconcious and I laid more emphasis on having a job than having a career but something inside kept mentally ticking off all the items that I didnt want. I knew what I didnt want but I never knew what I wanted. Finally when I got a job I was more than happy but even that happiness was shortlived because I realised whatever I was doing was not what I wanted (but again I didnt know what I WANTED).
I thank you for making me realise what I wanted and giving me the conviction to go after it. I finally landed where I wanted to but it wasnt easy. It was months of speculating, anxiety, convincing myself and convincing others and having faith in myslef and in the universe that IT WILL HAPPEN.
Before and after that a lot of times you kept reaffirming my faith in faith because I always got what i wanted..what I REALLY wanted. Not once or twice but everytime. Everytime I looked up at the sky talking to you, something inside always told me this will happen. Though nothing was ever easy it was always a long walk..a steep climb..unattainable yet attained. A problem that unfolded itself as a huge complex maize of roadblocks and possibilities was always broken down into small tasks that I could take on...how?? I dont know it just almost always happened. But ofcourse because I willed it to..I never said I cant but i always said i will 'one at a time'.
Somehow over the past few years I had forgotten how important it is to be positive about life, to want something so badly that the universe doesnt have the heart to not give it to you. Even in the darkest and most negative of situations one has to keep the faith alive, faith not only in the supreme power but faith in yourself.
But today when I write this to you I am where I have never been, I want something so badly like I never wanted anything and my faith in the universe which had somehow disappeared is back. I seek help from you and the universe to give me what I want because I swear I have never been so sure of anything. No matter how trying the circumstances are I will always smile and say no problem just keep going because at the end I know what awaits me.
Your's Faithfully
